Do you ever feel like you have bad days where your just exhausted physically and mentally. Exhausted from your day to day life, from over thinking all the time, running on auto pilot instead of actually being there mentally. Your there physically but not mentally, youve lost sense of yourself, your self worth and just feel numb.
You put 100% and some, in everything you do, mainly not for yourself but for others. No matter how tired you are or if wanted to actually do something for yourself but instead do something else for another. Always putting other before yourself.
Always worrying despite how big or little it may seem . But your mind cant escape it, just fixates on it like a leech. Its utterly exhuasting isnt it.
Even at bed time that moment as soon as your head hits the pillow your mind goes wondering and starts questioning, debating, worrying. " Am i doing enough, am i good enough"
People see you as this bubbly, outgoing person without never really understanding or seeing whats really going on in the inside. " Shes ok, look at her happy bubbly,...." but behind all that is this shy, worrying, anxious person, even putting on that persona can be exhausting.
I have days where i feel completely disconnected from myself and everyone. Not really sure what im thinking as im thinking of a hundred of things at once.
I have my own coping methods to try and help me through these type of days, writing down whats on my mind, my list of worries, reading a book helps my mind escape itself and into another world. Going outside for a walk, baking, even cleaning to help get the day over as tomorrow is a new day.
Focus on the good, the good to come and the good that i have had and the bad iv already overcome.
There might be other people out there that might have similar days to me and i iust want you to know you are not alone and its ok not be ok. If feel like you just need a friendly chat whilst you have that cuppa or to escape your mind just drop me a message even if its just a hello.